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Blessings... Grief... Blessings...
The other day My Muse told me he noticed I have sent him almost 1,000 emails in the course of our friendship. Now I find myself censoring myself before sending him emails. I told him I was going to start keeping a notebook, instead. Katherine, Sam and I are about to go out to the River to hold our own mini-impromptu Church Service. I am very excited. I am still feeling... not very welcomed at the church I "belong" to... ever since that anonymous person said such horrid things to me/about me recently. Last night in between "Bent" and "Corpus Christi" I went to Barnes and Noble. I practically fell into ecstacy reading Rilke's "Book of Hours" and Adrienne Rich's "Poetry and Commitment." And then I found a copy of Melodie Beattie's recent book. "The Grief Club"... and being a card carrying member, I picked it up, held it in my hands... and started to read. This quote really spoke to me so I thought I would share it.... "We need a national campaign to redefine what it means to be blessed. The problem with not feeling blessed is when we don't feel blessed, we don't know how blessed we are." I miss my brother. I am blessed. 13 comments from 4 users
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posted by
twinkie
on May 21, 2007 at 04:25 PM
I miss my cousin Federico. I am blessed. *Your muse obviously needs a slap on the head. I'd be glad to give it to him, if you'd like. :) posted by
JulieJordanScott
on May 21, 2007 at 04:38 PM
LOL. He reads in here... so maybe he will consider himself slapped, dear Twinkie. (And I have sent him... I think four emails since then... mostly just little ones..lol)
posted by
twinkie
on May 21, 2007 at 04:44 PM
hahaha.... cyber slapped by a Twinkie. HEY that doesn't happen to just anyone. I hope he feels special! :)
posted by
LeoFlash
on May 22, 2007 at 12:51 PM
I can never cease to be shocked that a member of a church could be so hurtful to another church member. It pains me to know that you had that experience. I empathize and say that I am sorry - not to apologize, but to extend heartfelt support and compassion.~JB~ posted by
JulieJordanScott
on May 22, 2007 at 01:00 PM
Thanks, JB. Christ didn't mean for it to be this way. I think it must make Him sad. I think about Him saying "Love one another" and "Blessed are the peace-makers"... the entire Sermon on the Mount, the Beatitudes... and it makes me cry. I have been in church leadership... I love Christ deeply.... so it makes the pain even worse... or maybe not worse... it just amplifies the sting and I keep moving. And I keep loving....
posted by
Thesilenceclub
on May 22, 2007 at 02:20 PM
You lead a genuine path Julie. Your natural motives alone should be affirmation that you are blessed. Keep being you.
posted by
JulieJordanScott
on May 22, 2007 at 04:14 PM
Thank you, Aaron. You know, people are great at bringing these fountains of salt-water bursting from my eyes today. Believe me, it is a GOOD thing, from this perspective!
posted by
twinkie
on May 23, 2007 at 10:09 AM
that was funny. and YES I was singing it in my head!
posted by
JulieJordanScott
on May 23, 2007 at 11:22 AM
Me, too. Now I just need to memorize the pieces so I can re-tell it... OHHHHH so dramatically, ofcouse. (Would you ever expect anything else from me?) And My Muse spoke a disclaimer today. He said, "I wasn't complaining when I said you had sent me almost 1,000 emails!" I knew he wasn't but man-oh-man, it made me self conscious. (So today, I picked up the phone instead and said, "Didn't want to waste email # 1008 with that!) posted by
LeoFlash
on May 23, 2007 at 12:29 PM
OK, so if you tell that one tonight at rehearsal, I won't say anything!~JB~ posted by
JulieJordanScott
on May 23, 2007 at 12:54 PM
HEY! Now I recognize you!!! LeoFlash, I had no idea!
posted by
twinkie
on May 23, 2007 at 01:12 PM
Leo Flash the red X mystery person ....
posted by
JulieJordanScott
on May 23, 2007 at 02:23 PM
Twinkie - - LeoFlash...she is the leading lady in my play, "I Wait for Sleep"... based on... well, you know... think.. last Fall. A particular man and a particular woman and a lot of... poetry... yup. Make plans now to see it. Opens June 15....
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