I'm so uncomfortable, I can't freaking sleep at night! I don't know how I'm suppossed to feel inspite of having had labor experiences described to me many times now. Child birth seems scary, I hope I don't experience a blow out!

I had to do this; I am both looking and feeling very maternal. Two weeks to go, and I'll be due. My first little one, and this whole 8 1/2 month experience  of pregnancy is what brought out my urge to reveal an art once dormant. ...

ER, umm, what's a mucus membrane, and why does my doctor want to "strip" it?????? Sounds disgusting.... and painful...

I had such a fun Baby shower/hafla (belly dance party). The evening was fun- filled and exciting but , thee most exciting part of it was when I ended up leaving for the hospital! I've got a rash on my belly from the henna designs drawn on by my friends that night. No regretts though, I had a blast! The designs are so lovely and I wear them proudly. I have the best friends anyone could ever wish for!  So, I went to the hospital that evening because I had been feeling what I was sure were Braxton Hicks contractions (Daneen made me go). I'd been  craving chalk and dirt and thought that maybe I was also leaking. Well, better safe than sorry I thought, so, off Daneen and I went to the hospital. Haha, so this being my first baby, I didn't know any better to wash the henna design off of before leaving for the hospital. While there I ended up staining the hospital equiptment, the gown and the bed sheets (...my bad!)!  Anyway the hospital staff ended up determining that everything was OK, that I was not in labor, and that I could go home. I went home that night leaving leaving the giggly nurses with what looked like a bunch of "rat poop" all over the bed and floor! ...Well, atleast I got a good practice run, and know what my hospital visit will be like next time ...minus the henna stains and the "rat poop!"  I'll be sure to post the pics of my belly as soon as I have them:D.

I've got I got feet in my ribs, elbows almost busting thru my sides, and I big baby head in my bladder... I need sex and a massage!

I'm hungry, and it ain't even the 1st (of the month) yet!!!

Ok, so I'm due in less than 6 weeks and everyone is telling me that the name I'm thinking about giving my son is not good for Bakersfield. I want to name him "Paz William," and for those of you who do not speak or understand any Spanish, it means "peace" or "peaceful." I got the "William" from an idea that one of my favorite poets used in defining his identity to himself in one of his poems. Ever heard of "Sal Williams?" Anyway, Williams broke his last name down into three symbolic words, "will- i- am." I dug it, always have...

Often I'm asked by people if I've picked a name for my baby yet. As soon as I tell them what I've been  thinking, I get, "No!" and, "Why! You'll ruin his life if you name him that!" and, "Bakersfield people are too narrow-minded for that." ...and it's pissing me off!

I don't feel the need to worry about some bull- shit like that. I mean, I'm not going to count on it happening or anything. ...Am I overlooking something important here? We're supposed to teach our kids to stand up for themselves. So then, I guess I'll find out whether he will or will not, one day. That is, stand up for himself.