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life (posted on myspace 8-18-08)

So I was sitting at my desk at the office this morning....when I get to thinking about where my life is at right now.

    Yes, there is the baby momma drama...but even that is starting to not faze me as its used to. Julian is healthy, and has everything that he needs, and then some. We haven't had to buy him diapers ONCE since he was born...which was over a month ago. Everyone showered him with gifts...and he got boxes and boxes of diapers. He has such a huge family, so yeah, he's definately being spoiled.

    Then there is my socializing. I find that I am keeping busier, and hanging out with friends that I hadn't hung out with in forever more often. That makes me
happy too.

    And then theres my job. I love it. I have my desk in the office....I sit and listen to music and work (or go on myspace or bakotopia!). When I have to go out and serve subpoenas, I do. When I have medical records to duplicate, I go out and do it. Same for prepairing legal documents, pouching documents, skip-tracing, and everything else I do. Its so chill...it pays great...and while I'm out of the office, they do not keep tabs on my time AT ALL! I dont take advantage of this, but its nice to know the trust is there.
       Another cool thing about my job is that I now get to do things that I would have never seen myself doing a few years ago, or even a few months ago really. Just last Friday, I went out to a business lunch with two attorneys and a court clerk about a job at the superior court that I had that day.
    We had lunch at this place called the Bell Tower Club. Its a members only dinning club where they serve some bomb ass food. It was hillarious, cuz I felt that I was WAYYYYYY underdressed, but I think it was fine. I'm just glad they didnt offer me a jacket...that would have been embarassing. Anyways, I ordered the chicken and they had the ribeye and lamb's leg and I forget what the other lawyer dude had (it wasnt anything great, or I would have remembered). Anyways, so they bring the food out....and its on a white china plate, with little chicken slices right in the middle, with green beans on the side and lots of the white of the plate showing around the food. It was such a small dish...but it was soooooo fucking delicious and free, for me anyways.
    Its crazy. I could have never seen me doing things like this . I'm seriously considering sticking it out in the law field and getting back to school....we'll see where I am a couple of years from now.....

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posted by an1ok1joe on Aug 19, 2008 at 12:10 PM

You sound like what my Dad would say of people  that didn't know what they wanted, "like a fart in a whirl wind" I can't help but notice you mentioned how you loved your life as it is,.no one looking over your shoulder  and all. Then turn around and notice all the opulence of your business lunch date. I've been to the Bell Tower, it's nice, but there are equally  nice places in town too. It seems you had  monetary starts in your eyes. You said you are thinking  after this experience you might want to move in the direction of law. I'm sure you've asked yourself some questions. is it because of the money for being one.  You also know your two options as well. Where you are now you would have more freedom and time to  be with your child. Also to be with your friends. Then again if you continued on with the field of law you wouldn't have those things. Life is always full of these options and it makes it fun, but difficult at times. Just remember  money and opulence doesn't mean freedom, and it doesn't mean  more spare time for those you love. But then again you just may have been hungry that day at the Bell Tower, you have to decide what you were more hungry for.  As I write this you already have the answer inside yourself. We always do.

posted by zero on Aug 19, 2008 at 02:17 PM

oh no...please dont get me wrong. geeze...i never get out my whole view in these blogs. It really isn't all about the money. That place.....the food is killer...but the setting is actually....eh....not really impressive. There are pleany of nicer places around

but I am just that. someone who is just coming to the point where it might be time to start thinking about the way things might be down the line...say 10 years from now. I have to know that I can provide for my son and his mom. Two incomes in one household should be nice. She just started working again...thats pretty cool.

Trust me dude.....im not blinded by pennies. I really do think its time for me to get back to school. When I first got out of HS i thought that I wanted to work on computers...so I went to an IT school. Not what I want to do anymore. Everyone has always told me to consider the possibility of a carreer in the field. I am very good at convincing people that I have a good point...even when I dont.

I am also pretty persuasive, and love school. Having school interfere with my social life is the least of my concerns. If I go to school early and get out before 30...I think I could be happy....no matter what I end of going to school for in the end. 

posted by anonymous on Aug 19, 2008 at 03:09 PM

Tick tock time fades swifty! before ya know it your fifty! Find a gear quickly and burn that baby out...... or else you'll end up a jack of all trades and master of nothing.

posted by an1ok1joe on Aug 19, 2008 at 06:57 PM

These last two statement are wonderful and true. Idid the same thing  as you  Zero except it was computer tech,..i spent 6000 doallrs and a years of my time to  not even get a CET. No AA,..nothing,.why? 80 percent don't even pass the test. I didn't and I took it twice. I finaly  said to myself, this isn't where I need to be  Mr.or MS  Anonymous was right pick soemthing soon. Perferably soemthing people will need ,..always. Computer is not it with the  on coming advancement of nano computers and etc etc etc,..unless you want to be  on the bleeding edge and in competition all your life in that field.  either wya you don't want to be like me,..like Anonymous stated,..A jack of all trades and master of none!  And for me? 50 is only two years and  so many months away.

 

posted by twinkie on Aug 19, 2008 at 11:03 PM

There is NOTHING wrong with thinking about the future and having goals. Even though we're happy with our lives now we have to think about our future. For example, I can be happy working at McDonalds making minimum wage right now and I'm ok with not owning my own home or having a nest egg for my retirement, etc. But will I be ok with that 10 years from now? Hell no. I might think I will, but really... ???? 

Why should the government end up sponsoring my daily needs when I get older (like senior citizen older) just because I was happy being "chill" at my minimum wage job. We must always look into the future and make life goals accoridingly. Doesn't mean we're materialistic. It means we're being responsible.

Besides, your satisfying job NOW may not be so cool ten years from now, so it's good to have options. Don' t apologize for thinking ahead.

posted by an1ok1joe on Aug 20, 2008 at 02:38 AM

I don't think he said he was making minimum wage Twinkie. I think where he is now is good for him so he can have time with his baby. (Just a guess)That's time you never get back,..he's not old so he has time to do what he wants a little later on not perhaps right away.  Generally lawyers don't  make a small amount of money so he would have a little more than your nest egg. I was pointing out not to get all caught up in everyone else ideal of mo money mo money. It makes you old and  you have to work hard to,..make more money,. There's  point where you become a slave to opulence.

I wouldn't want a job at McDonald's making minimum wage  even now are you kidding?  Actually I don't think they make min wage these days and Manager do OK so i hear.

I was talking to a  good friend that works at a  eating establishment  tonight that worked with  David Crisp  about 8 years ago when he worked at,..ahem On the Border , a cheesy little restaurant that is now Logan's. He told her I'm going to make millions , I'm going to be somebody.  Well ,..we saw how he turned out. Money is not success being happy where you are in in area of your life is success.  I notice more and more Millennial's  are  taking job after job after job    great jobs but they switch jobs over and over,..Honestly if you had a company  and you had someone that was bright and  a go getter  but he  or she worked like ten different really great business one right after another would you REALLY hire them? They wouldn't be there very long for your company you are just their flavor of the week.  No one  commits to finding what they like and sticking it out these days... There is no tradition anymore. I suppose for most it seems humdrum,..I'm not saying you can't diversify, I'm saying most business play out,..they don't really hang in there,. they get bored and lose  focus.  Take down town for instance,...you know in a year or even 6 mo from now those business will change hands,..maybe you can blame the economy. maybe not.  What ever happen to that great place you went to as a kid that has always been there you could count on for,..what ever product they sell or service they give? Gone.

 If Zero is truly happy right now where he is he still can make that nest egg future and not necessarily  go into a law practice if he doesn't want to,..eventually he could buy out his boss someday and then have ultimate freedom.  There is a nest egg.  in the grass  not seen before. I was just suspecting he may have  ideals of making a lot of money in a  law practice  and that may have been spurred by   a lot of money to  been made. I suppose there is nothing wrong with that.  But my point is: Would he truly be happy doing that? Would he be doing what he really wanted?  Would he have  time to enjoy his family? Or would he do it for total selfish reason's or is he thinking of his family's future.   These are the question that need to be asked by himself.  And like I said I think he already knows what he wants to do.

It was just my thought, though I could be wrong.

posted by zero on Aug 20, 2008 at 08:02 AM

when I write these blogs....I usually do it with no thought put into it and with what comes out and across the farthest thing from mind. I just type whatever comes to my head. And I really would consider a career in the law field. Also, when I went to IT school, I had A in my classes, 6 total. I didn't go for too long, because it was a bit expensive for me back then. I was 17 and straight out of high school. And I also realized that I wouldnt be happy building computers and installing shit......I'm more about the computer graphics part of it if anything.

 

Also, I wanted to say. I don't want to sound so apoligetic, or like need to explain myself....because in person, I am the kind of guy that gets into trouble for not wanting to apoligize....i wont do it unless I'm serious

but i like to keep the peace

posted by twinkie on Aug 20, 2008 at 08:42 AM

John, it was just an example. hee hee. He has a good job and probably makes really good money. I was actually using an old boyfriend as an example. When I first met him I envied his free spirit and lack of desire for "more." I felt like I was perhaps materialistic??? But forward 15 years and he's living with mom working at a mini mart while his mom and dad raise his kids.

Zero, I know what you mean. I use my blogs as an outlet and let it all flow out. Sometimes after I typed it all out I don't even feel like that anymore, you know? 

For example, the one I just wrote about the Olympics, obviously the "issue" is more complicated than that. I just simplified it for the sake of arguement, you know? 

Also, I didn't necessarily mean you were "apologizing" once again.. it was just a general comment not necessarily meant for you or John. I just felt the need to say it in case somebody else reading your blog felt inclide to feel that way.

posted by an1ok1joe on Aug 20, 2008 at 07:28 PM

I was the same way when I went to the same type of school. I ended defaulting and then paying back my loans eventually.  But it was a experience for me I know computers from start to finish. I'm a people person and I just didn't realize that then. I'm more of a graphics  person as well.

 Twinkie it's sad to see people who will settle. His problem could be his parents made it so easy to be with them that he never flew from the next. I was kicked ,..KICKED out by my Mom.  I was working while in school prior to that (she kicked me out because I lovez da womenz. I didn't want to do anything but talk to em. I stayed up late  partied (alone)  and my mom didn't like who i was  hookin up with, but she made it worse in a sense, she kicked me, and i moved in with her family and her. I went on to  work and do what i needed. Perhaps this guy never was Kicked from the crib. 

I can certainly agree with both of you on my own personal ramblings, but hey it's just self expression, when  we are gone maybe someone will remember our BS and think hmmm remember when that moron john said this? or that?  It's just nice to express even though you don't even maybe feel the same way as you did before you hit "submit comment"

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